February 2012
5 posts
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I don’t like the way my writing is sounding right now. I was going to write a post about my ever-evolving definition of vulnerability, but I just deleted a paragraph because I really didn’t like my writing blog voice.
There is true vulnerability for you.
Life with...Courtney Ruth Werner!
This roommate review is so overdue that it isn’t even funny.
So in September, Texas sent me a Courtney Werner as my final subletter. She was to be an intern for the Origins Missions Base that launched this year. I didn’t really realize it until later, but when she moved in we barely knew each other —we were something like acquainted strangers. I remember the first time I met...
Because every single thing that I say makes sense
Today has been a day filled with Ray LaMontagne and lettuce and the cold and charcoal and the stupid tube we have to draw in art class 19 times (We number them, so really, that many times…) and my scarf around my head and Thugz Mansion and yawns and tiredness and yelling that comes from my mouth!!!
I made a happy playlist and Ray LaMontagne is on it singing “You are the best thing...
January 2012
6 posts
We just need to be brave Pauline Tai,
I wrote in my journal the other day “We just need to be brave Pauline Tai, we just need to be brave”.
You know, whatever happens to me, I just hope that my heart remains brave and bold. When my heart is brave, I can come before the Father and know that I am accepted. When it is brave, I can come before men and be who I am without apologizing. When it is brave, it can look in the face...
wingstofly asked: how do people comment on your posts? i can't seem to figure it out : P
Life
For this quarter, I will deem myself an mostly art minor and scarcely history major.
Amen.
Brain you have earned your rest.
Something is happening within my soul where I no longer want to be in school. Not forever. Just for now. I think about the homework that is already due and the reading that has already been assigned and at the same time I don’t think about it. I think about other things and I let those distressing thoughts flow quietly to the back of my mind. Ah, school, thou hath cometh at the wrong time. I...
December 2011
15 posts
I think about the value of hope very very frequently. I mean the name of this blog is HOPENAME after all. I think about hope because it is the tinder spark that everyone underestimates. It is the seed that becomes a mighty oak. It is that breath that breathes upon the broken and convinces them that tomorrow it’ll be alright and parts the clouds of the weary-hearted. I think about hope...
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Headphones (Sennheiser HD 205 or HD 202)
USB Mic (Blue Yeti or Snowball)
Anything from a Canon Mark II 5d to a Canon EOSX
Its interesting how much can change with familiarity. I’m sitting in this small coffee shop that I discovered in my town the other day where they are playing old American songs like “Moon River” and in my heart I feel a little happier. I think its because its familiar. I remember hearing Heidi Baker talk about how when Americans visited her on missions trips they would feel...
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Things tend to make less sense when I’m happier. I think that might be nice. It makes me feel a little insane, like I’m in my own world. The truth is though, I’m not in my own world, I’m in another one entirely and it is also inhabited by other people and and and and they’re not people sometimes too and sometimes not visible. I was reading in the Bible in John either...
Today there was this thing that happened. I think it was a conversation. I think, I’m not sure. It might have also been heart surgery, but who knows? Really.
Every day, every day, every day, every day.
Hahahah!
I know sometimes I love pain. Something about the inner creative just wallows in it. But there’s a greater joy that will swallow all of the pain, all of the circumstances and leave us radiant and happy. I said it: happy. The five letter word that everyone thinks is a myth. True joy that makes me happy. Yes, I get the joy that is deep and sometimes resides in sadness, but there is also ...
I was just in a room full of Taiwanese missionaries. Granted, the conversation topic wasn’t the most interesting thing in the world, but being in there with them still caused a warm feeling in my heart. Its crazy to be in a room full of people who have dedicated their lives to the Lord in different countries. I want to hear their stories, know where they’ve been and what they’ve...
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What are your thoughts?
I want to have a discussion about the desires of your heart and every dream that you believe or don’t believe will happen. I’ve just been thinking about this today and the idea that all of the desires of my heart will be fulfilled. I want to live with an expectation that they will be, that God formed these things in my heart from before I was born and that I’ve been set up...
Good old fashioned post
God is good. I find that I’m always saying that after something intense goes on, but you know, it’s not because I feel relieved that the difficulty is finally over. I just think something happens in your heart when you realize that he is fighting on your side and has been in your midst, then you can’t help but rejoice and marvel. Are you really that good?
Yes and yes and yes and...
All I want is You and all I need is found only in Your heart.
Stillness is sometimes the wisest thing to do in the midst of the busy hullabaloos
November 2011
11 posts
Worth it is what she said I was. What she said he said they said now I say; worth it. Don’t care what you think is the new motto as I stroll in. Unpack my heart unpack my eyes, unpack these loads, restin on weary sides, why are you sighing?
Thanksgiving + Black Friday
Hot Pot with Shine
Intelligentsia Coffee in Pasadena. We walked in for the experience and realized that our collegiate budgets couldn’t handle it. One day…
And we all should have gotten more sleep.
Happy Thanksgiving everyone!
Rich
I remember once Brian Orme was talking about how he felt like the richest guy in the world cause of the people in his life. Thats kind of how I feel. I feel ridiculously rich. My circumstances are just normal, my week wasn’t a particularly amazing one before my birthday, but then suddenly I looked around yesterday and realized how amazingly rich and abundant my life is. Geez. Its...
You know its funny, but sometimes you never realize what real fears reside in the crevices of your heart and keep you from doing what you really want to be doing. I think I’ve been having a conglomeration of these types of moments lately where I realize that what has fueled a lot of my thinking has been a series of hesitations. I have definitely had my moments of “I’m going to do...
Lalalala
Throw up your hands! Give in! and I have over and over This game of not understanding, I might not ever understand but its worth it every time He shows through every time so I throw my hands up
OVERSIZED CLOTHING AND THICK SOCKS AND LOTS OF...
The best times to post on Tumblr are inevitably during the hustle and bustle of midterms. I think it has almost become a customary Pauline tradition at this point to do so. Well, greetings from mid-November. Winter and I send our mittened hellos. The weather has been growing cold lately. Layers are remembering their place in my daily wardrobe as Pauline slob version 3.0 emerges from the closet....
Here's proof I exist as a human being.
A few thoughts from today’s mental soup:
Bon Iver, Bon Iver
I find myself more interested in the consistency of guitar strums than chords themselves. Oh texture… How you slay me.
John Mark’s Economy, sporadically
“I wanna love you when the blood of my veins don’t know how to call out your name, Yeah I wanna love you when the birds don’t hang around”
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October 2011
7 posts
I’m on the doorstep to November and I feel that I’m on the verge of something. I’ve probably been perched here for a while, but you can be in the most amazing space and never realize it. What has been happening is that I’ve been surrounded by the phenomenal conversations and oh how I could go on about the magnitude of simple conversations.
I’m listening to Kim Walker’s version of How He Loves, which had long been thrown onto my mental backburner because I had listened to it so many times in the past. But now, after not having heard it for a while, its hitting me again. There are those simple things that can be so easily overlooked. He really loves me. Bah, I don’t feel like I can communicate it with words. Love...
Good music makes me wanna make music.
Awaken my Saturdays
Write to soul’s content shaking the rafters words don’t bend
Light from my eyes now its day outside
Opening doors you opened yours got my walls all knocked down broken man with a crown come alongside you’d sit on the ground by me
WatchThis year Let There Be Light is free! If you guys are anywhere near San Diego, pop by. It will be amazing. Learn about your identity in Christ, what you have access to as a son/daughter, and all of that good stuff!
September 2011
10 posts
I miss the rain. I miss my christmas lights in my Warren living room. I miss Bethel and the sound of the trickling water in the Alabaster Prayer House. I miss Christmas trees at 2 am and smoldering flames in the fireplace when everyone has fallen asleep, but for some reason I only then wake up. I miss a lot of things, mostly sentimental, mostly romantically themed and tagged in the archives of my...
Blogging is the greatest when its something you shouldn’t be doing. You really should be doing something important, like…oh I don’t know…. writing a summary for your history class, but instead you decide to blog. Aw yeah.
Well I don’t really have anything to say. I hope you are all having wonderful evenings or mornings or mid-afternoons, whenever this post ventures...
We’re living the dream, walking hand in hand with the King. I’m so highly favored. Can this be real? But it is and I hear a thousand times yes yes yes and amen.
People
I’m falling in love with people I think. Its kind of a strange thought to type out, I don’t know.
People are real. People are what its all about at the end of the day. People are important enough in and of themselves to deserve attention and love, not for the sake of whatever I need them for or want them for. I have probably vociferated these ideals for years, but I don’t think...
Life with Norielle Aurelio
I remember one of the first conversations that I ever had with Norielle was in Geisel Library while we were studying for Calculus. We talked about how God had somehow ambushed us both to UCSD and neither of us had really expected to end up here yet that’s what happened.
Two years later we found ourselves living together for the summer and this blog-post was born. Amen.
I suppose I should remain...