You know its funny, but sometimes you never realize what real fears reside in the crevices of your heart and keep you from doing what you really want to be doing. I think I’ve been having a conglomeration of these types of moments lately where I realize that what has fueled a lot of my thinking has been a series of hesitations. I have definitely had my moments of “I’m going to do whatever I want!!” but I realized that what has dominated a lot of my thought processes have been hesitations that I haven’t been able to place. I guess I just had this moment today where I asked Catherine whether we were really allowed to do those things that we really enjoyed. It was kind of surprising to hear myself ask that question, but its been a legitimate concern in my heart. Do we really get to do what burns on our hearts? The obvious answer is yes and yes and yes please do, but the quiet no undertones point me to all of these strange paradigms that I guess I thought were true… Well, I’m going to leave the moral of the story out today, its absence will bring happy outcomes I’m sure.